Me!

hiya, came to blog down my feelings again. i know i've been always saying the same things. Over and over again, but i wan to get something off my chest. Whether u want to read it, it's up to yourself, it's me and my blog. bleahx~

For my life i nv really had a bunch of good friends. Probably i have only Jing and Ari as my closest friends of all. They are both my sweeties, even though seldom chat on the phone about the latest gossip that we have, both of us know that we have each other in mind. Thanks god so much for giving them to me. Without them, i'll be so lost... Although we dunn share much in common in any aspect, like fashion taste or attitude, there's just something that click us together tightly. =)

Despite having those 2 best friends, most of the time we are leading our own life. For some moment, i'm actually envy of ppl who have many friends surrounding them. Jealous? Yes, i am. haha... i'm human afterall. But, being solo doesn't mean anything bad too.

Being solo, i can take my breath anytime i want [cuz i'm not constraint by anyone], do my things the way i enjoy.

Bored?
haha, of cuz! No ppl to date me out [zatto in camp... go where leh?]. Date ppl? my friends have their own happening too. i dunn wanna disturb them too. hmm... Maybe, there are occassions that my friends think that i may have my own happening too... haha...

I find some of my friends a solo too. Maybe they're not, but it appears to me that they are. ppl like Wendy, me, Jing, Zatto, xm etc... even my mummy is a solo too. eh, sounds like many ppl? Are you one of them?

Am i too busy to bother to know more ppl? hmm... i think it's so true of me? haiz, dunno leh. I felt that there are period of time when i dunn feels like talking to ppl, but sometimes i talk so much that irritate ppl. Be it issit my topics too boring or too nagging.

E.g: i told one of my friends to drive carefully when on the road before i end our conversation everytime. Then he met an accidence after that. I've always have a kind of intuition that ppl dunno. That something might happened to them, that's why i'm constantly reminding them about it. Why am i doing all this of you ppl? Because i care for you and sincerely praying for you...
I think often we have to let ppl knows what we are thinking, so as to avoid misunderstanding and unnecessary aruguments.

I don't usually agree to what zatto have say, but, i think this is so true: if ppl treat u like shit, dunn do the same thing back to them. u are only degrading urself like them. They may have their own retributions. Maybe not? They are born with good life. Many times, life is just so unfair.

I'm a competitive person. I want to be the best in any aspects, studies lah, in love, fashion sense and etc. Not to show off, but to help ppl in needs. I know i cant be the best, cuz there's always ppl better than u do. Nevertheless, i wun stop trying to be one, cuz i'm a perfectionist. haha... i hope the virgo in me will help me. i read it from somewhere that i have to feel to be needed, cuz i keeps me moving and boost my confidence lvl. I dunno how many ppl knows, but i'm not a very confidence person. =)

Know me better? I hope so... =) arh... tired, had to squeeze so much brain juice to type all these. =P Feel so much better, but can i publish this entry? I dunn want to disappoint ppl becuz of my bad points. =(

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Something to let you know, the following below is my goals for next year:

1) After guaduate, i'll apply for a university course. Hopefully will get a business course.

2) If i'm suceeded, during holiday i'll do courses as below:

3) if i dunn manage to get one, i'll go for courses like English and japanese language course. i know sound so stupid right? but i'm really fascinated and interested in languages.

4) Learn diving! able to explore something under the water and swim with my favourite animal, dolphin!

5) Do part time to earn cash so as to do my favourite hobby, Baking! I want to open a bakery shop =)

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kk, that's all folk! haha...

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