Am I too old??

I'm only 21 years old and just had my birthday. Many things that i used to do doesnt seems to interest me anymore. Or maybe, there're other things that are occuping my life now.....

I'm getting more and more tired and irritated. This world is so UGLY. This Society is so cruel. I hate it and detest it. I wish the world could just revolve ard me. Under extreme protection from my parents for the past 21 years, now they threw me into this war zone. Thinking that i might survive and be someone great. Having diploma cert is not enough anymore. Being nice is not a good choice anymore. You had to be a graduate [from uni]. You have to wear a mask everyday to work. That's how you can survive and continue to have peaceful life.

Written this during work:

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Working in the society taught you to be selfish, cruel, greedy....
Keeping your slient save yourself from trouble.
"Dare to dream, be yourself" no longer could be found in my dictionary.
Cuz you cant do that to face this world of hypocrisy.

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This morning, i was happily thinking that if i tell my dad that i wanna go for a degree, he would support me morally.

Things just go the other way when u're having downside of life.

The first thing he said, "Are you sure?"
If i wasnt sure, i wouldnt had been cracking my head for the past 1 year thinking if i should continue study. I had been thinking to future study since my last year in poly.

I told him that i wanna take up bachelor of business marketing. And the next thing he said was marketing is useless.

I took up business marketing for a reason. i want to start business myself.

I want to follow my dream. I dunno is it because of the recent screening of the lastest korean show, but i only know my passion for baking. And the job satisfaction within?? Is that ppl enjoy my creations. Well, maybe in the end, you might asked why not shatec??? cuz i want to open an cafe rather than just doing baking.

I've decided my cafe's name too. Sweet Addiction. Hmm, just find out sweet addiction is a rock band in europe. [=.=]" Oh well, then i shall name it as "Sweet Addic Cafe", in short, SAC.

I nv told dad abt my passion for baking or even start a business myself. Cuz he would nv agree, so why tell??

In the end, he told me that business management is better than marketing. I wanted too, but an additional of 10k. I'm helping to save his pocket.... He suggested to discuss with a unknown guy [i dunno him] . Whatever! I'll try to save my own university Fee then.....

I could feels my tears at the verge of rolling down....