It's already more than 2 weeks that i've nv update my blog. Sometimes i think that i might nv update my blog again. But thanks to my "short term memory" i have to blog down so that i remember them.
After reading someone's blog, felt that my standard of english really sucks to the core. Nevertheless, there must be something good abt me. But wat if i find none? Would someone find me as an low self-esteem person?? i think so....
But afterall, everything comes back to me. Do i really wants to do it? Am i discipline enough? Perharps, i am wat my dad says... implusiveness. And i really hate him for saying that.
Probably i'm trying to destroy myself or maybe a wake up call. I still find it quite impossible to cure myself.
If i am a star, i can feel that i'm losing my light...
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I dunn write all this pesimistic remarks for nothing. My dad just commented abt me this morning and i felt very upset. It's unhealthy cause i had been down for the past months and i wants to get back on my feets asap. i had been in the dark for too long...
Every decision that i make now seems to affect my future. After my dad rejected me, i've been thinking alot. Should i study, not? Poor standard of English gonna bring myself trouble when i study in uni. But without my degree, i cant go anywhere....
Still gonna get my degree, but probably in 2 years time. After i saved up my own sch fee, then i'll take up a part time degree course. Work and study at same time! Hope this plan wun goes wrong and doesnt change....
Post this entry first! Other updates will leave it for another day or else this blog wun even get updates for 3 weeks =X
Night!
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