6 Dec
"Always look on the bright side of life *whistle whistle*! " Hear this every morning from yes 93.3 after their joke of the day. But the sad thing is that i cant do that now....
It's really unhealthy that i've been in my depressed mood for too long and i want to get out of it asap. I though things were looking better, i though i have solutions to my problem. But i'm wrong. None of them works.
I feels like crying everyday. I'm felt that i'm being sandwich by many things in life and i cant give up on them. Graining something also means lossing something. I know it's confusing what am i talking abt, but it doesnt really matters.
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12 Dec
Yesterday is the day, peace is restored in me. For many months, i havent felt this for a long time. That my feelings no longer fight each other, no longer in conflicts....
Early in the morning i typed this out: Letter of resignation
Search for the sample thru yahoo early in morning during work. I dunno wat's wrong/right with me or where the courage came from, i only remembered that the moment i finished typing the whole letter, i felt real good.
I had enough.
Enough for months.
I dunn deserve such treatment from them. It doesnt pay to be good. And i know i shouldnt say this. Su Ya is a real good person. If u dunno how to appreciate her then that's too bad.
i'm not a considerate person and i admit that i'm a kiasu singaporean. So? Wat's wrong with kiasu? Read some articles few days ago that being kiasu is better than not. Ok whatever it is 7 words to conclude all, "I just want to get things done".
I'm a self centered person [am i?] but i dunno why am i always troubling myself to do things that is best for you and at ur convenience? If u are my best friends, i suppose u should know that it's yaya's way of doing.
Keke, i better stop explaining what really happened and i dunn want to remind myself wat happened too.
Last day of work 29 dec.
Holiday here i come~~ and my new work too. [still looking though] *wink
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