Frustrating Family Ties

It's time to sleep but i just cant simply felt asleep with so much frustration in me.

As most of you know that my com had "passed away" few weeks back and i'm currently using dear's laptop to surf net and etc. Dear or my colleagues had mention that IT show is coming, so it's best to wait till then to get the most value desktop i can get.

It's finally IT show and i'm really glad that i can get the best deal on the first day. Well, hopefully. 999 bucks with 2gb ram and 320gb of disk space. Since i've just bought my LCD last pc show or it show, i just need to change CPU only. Thanks Daddy for paying and Eric uncle for accompanying us and giving advices.

All these, causes unhappiness between my younger sis and me.

I have to admit that i'm a daddy's girl. I have a lot of bad habits, but who doesn't have?

I'm not those girls who is thrifty and considerate like most do. Resisting temptation is probably my biggest weakness of all. That's not the worst, most prob due to my horoscope, i cannot accept imperfection whatever i have. The reason why i spend more money on quality things in my life. No proud to be "yue guan zu" = month end broke group.

So in the end, when money is not enough, i claim money that i've spend from my mum. This trend actually started since i was in secondary school. My upbring is probably cause by my mum cuz she is so extreme in being thrifty that my home always seems to be not enough household products to use. This is when i came in and supply and get the claims from my mum.

It kinda becomes a natural process that when i bought things that is not what i needed or wanted, i just write it down on some paper and inform mum to return the monies back to me. Of cuz the things will be use within the household.

However since i've started working, i would never claim the stuff i bought for myself or for my family. (usually food) Unless when the burdens becomes a little too heavy, like my dogs visit to the vet, i would all/partial/no claims from my mum.

It knows it's kinda boring to read all these nonsense. But it's where the frustration starts from.

My younger sis had been complaining abt how much money my whole family owns her. Driving lessons, dinner allowances, laptop hp bills etc. If affording 2 hp is a burden, then reduce the number so that you can pay only 1 bill and dunn need to claim from parents.

*rest*

Getting pretty sleepy after eating my drowsy med for my allergy.

I dash inside my dad's room while we're still in the midst of an argument. I got so frustrated that i cried uncontrollable. I was trying to help her understand the situation but she just refused to listen.

i've tried my best to save the our family relationship and 2 parties need to be open up to accept. i agree that saying is easy, cuz i just dislike talking while i'm doing something. But at least i try really hard to communicate more with my family members. Talking on the phone 2-4 hours out of 5 hours at home isnt gg to help improve the situation. Does that mean friends are more impt than family ties?

I've just jokes with a colleague recently, we human are not born to be obedience, in fact, we are born to do the opposite of what we're being told.

I guess i still have alot of learn abt life. Need to continue reading my tuesday with morrie to find out more.

It's really late and need to sleep now cuz it's already 1.40am.

Good night!