Cracking

My brain is probably cracking. My head hurt like crazy! I knew it's more likely due to the lack of sleep, but at the same time i had so much to responsibility and stress to digest at the same time.


It's overwhelming.


I know i caused all these unnecessary problems. But i'm just only human. Who's on earth is not lazy? Who's on earth does not have regrets in life? I do, so do you. But at least i'm willing to make amendment to my mistakes and not continue having more regrets in life.

Eric has always been very supportive to me and care so much on my well being. I truely appreciate him for being there for me. But family is also an important key factors on our progress in life. I need a dad or mum to tell me that i'm doing fine in life. Encouragement is all i need!! But they only keep reminding me that i have so many regrets and i deserved it!

I really envy Ari, dear and Angela that at least they have someone in their family that support on their decisions. Be it sisters, mother or brothers. I have none. You dunn have to mention that i have sister too. It's really frustrating when she always insisted that she is right. I've come to a point that i gave up explaining anything and kept my mouth shut!

I have to rely myself very much. To keep reminding myself that i have dreams to work and look forward to. I even had to encourage myself sometimes that i'm doing fine. Oil will eventually run out one day and i got myself burned badly.

I kept to myself alot and wouldnt say it until i crack or cracking.

Somebody, tell me what to do?