Onwards...

Havent been blogging for a really long time. Wish i could spend more time on blog so that i can dot down the little things that have been filling up my life. If only...

Temporary will be using this layout till i figure out how to get a better one. Chosen this layout cuz i've always like scroll and it feels something important.

Trying to blog down as much as i can remember what i wanna dot down before heading to bed.

First of all, my poly classmate had went ahead to meet his god way before us. I know it's weird about my description, but i just wanna sound positive. As a friend, i am ashamed that i did not know about his illness all this while. And i almost though it was a joke when i received the news. He was a guy who is really outgoing, outspoken and a joker in our class. But when i refer back to old facebook post, realisation hit me. i wanna cry but there was no tears. This was just happening too fast. =( But i thanks god that his suffering ended and now he is with him.

Damien, rest in peace. you will always live in our heart.

Times just flew by so fast that we realise that in life, we are missing out every little thing in life. Whether issit our long time friends that we have not meet up for long time, or our passions that couldn't fulfill due to commitment, or spending time with our love ones. Once in a while, we need to be reminded that there are somethings we need to accommplish in life, so that we dun live in regrets.

I know saying is always easy, feeling it is another one, doing it is another one.

One of my motto in life. Never say others when you cant do it. Of cuz, when i can do it, i expect the rest able to do it too. I know it's kind of my wishful thinking, but i guess this is just one of the trails of a virgo. It cant be help right? We love things to be perfect even thou it doesn't exist.

Cant believe that i am already 26 years old. 10 years ago, i am a skinny, 10 years on, i'm a fatty! hahaha! Spend my birthday with my fiance at bangkok and he actually forget his surprise he got for me when we were heading to the airport... *slap his butt lolx!

I couldn't believe that i can get mature and turn childish at the same time. I used to be so independent and now, i am relying so much on him. This is no good, for me of cuz. I am never afraid being alone because i was "trained" when i was young. Almost 7 years running a relationship, could actually make ourselves vulnerable.

Good thing is, my partner actually make me overall a happier person today. I am more confidence and positive towards the problems i faced. Even thou i still need improvement that i still get panicking easily when i am caught between.

Ending abruptly cuz it's over my usual bed time. Good night. Hopefully able to continue it soon...