Busy Week

end of week 12 of school term liao. time past so quickly yet so slow. project deadlines, common test and exam are so near, that it seems like chasing me. received my common test and confirmed that i have failed 2 paper. 1 paper just pass and the last one is not released yet. chose my specialization too. first choice programming. second media based and third e-log. although programming is tough. but media issh a module killer too. still so confused now...

wednesday really had a great talk with ari. hehe! girl talk! yah, if only we have bed and pillows there. both of us seems to be feeling low too. shh! kk erm... *zip

week 13
had been thinking alot recently. about me and zatto, about my own life, thinking what i've realised. i know what i want now. Things i want just seems to be clearer too.
the surface look fine, but things just happen inside. i've made him feel so miserable. i hate it! i dunn want to! i love him but life just dunn allow us to have the best of both worlds. we agreed that we dunn love each other till a point that we able to make sacrifice. he wants me to make the decision... i'm so lost now...
i know people around me will be so shocked to hear what happen to me and zatto. cuz we are always so loving. erm.. ya.. loving...
This week is a crucial period for me, project deadlines breathing down my neck and if i dunn do them well, i might have to repeat my modules.

although, i know i'm going through a low period, deep down inside my heart, i know, i know things will goes smoothly. cuz i'll try my best.
minna san gambatte!

*listening to britney spears's song, from the bottom of my broken heart.