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12 August
Just after i blog down something, on my way home, find out that my mobile app result was disappointing. I was troubled by whatever i'm thinking before and plus when i find out my result was D, i have nothing else more to say. It was raining when i'm on my way home. The weather just look as groomy as me. I was drenched when i reach home. Drop some tears when i'm at my bed room.

15 August
I really don't know how long i can endure. I know i've reached my limits, but i'm still pushing myself.
Found out another result of mine again citect i've got D. Disappointing again when i tried my best in the test too.

Just had a arugment with my dad. I wanted so much to upgrade my com. And my friend is doing it for free and he didn't wanted to. I really dunno how to do my work when i cant load the program into the com. 6 modules 6 projects! i really really dunno which one to do first? Have to stay in school everyday to do also cannot [dad scold]. Cant use com till late night also cannot[dad scold]~ I really dunno how to survive in my 3rd year. I wanted to give up but i cant! 1 more year only~

Almost everyday i had been crying. I've always think that tears is not my cup of tea. I dunn cry easily. But recently i've seem to lost control over them. The overwhelming stress on me is so much unbearable.

I really don't know what had get on me. Everything just... just... not right! My expectation too high? i'm too fussy? I'm too stupid? I'm too competitive? Yes, maybe i'm fussy... Watever~

My mind is just not right. I had been thinking alot of silly stuff.

I'm almost 20 le. Thinking back, i've nv ACCOMPLISH anything in my life yet. Not even a project is completely done by myself. Although i did tried, whatever i submit just wasn't my own work[sometimes]. I dunn want to be like 1 of my classmate. She cheats in exam, expect ppl to give her project answer without doing and even helps her to take attendance. She might as well dunn come to school. And the worst thing, she's not even thankful of it. I dunn want ppl to think that of me! I am NOT like this~

I know people concerning me will be worried sick about me. What the hell happen to me? I dunno too! I just want to leave the place~ Whether is it school or home, i cant find a place to fit myself in...

Everything happens so dramatically in my life. All suddenly just came in without warning and i've yet to see my miracle coming....