Christmas Eve And New Year

28 Dec 2005
Hmm... Christmas eve was good in the afternoon until evening, and the rest of the night, it's not worth mentioning about it.
Thanks Ari for ur xmas' present! And another 2 guys who gave me too *wink

well i'm broke after all this gift exchange..... when is my pay coming?? sob sob. offically broke again... =.=!!!

Very very sianz wor... recently got hit by tao hua yun. haiz. =X i guess it started last month? this matter somewhat interrupt my lifestyle in a way or two. i've read horoscope and it mention that this will continue until next year. hmm... can this be avoided?

yeah, i've plan to go MoS this new year eve!! This will be my first ever count down in my life. haha. Finally going to clubbing again. my whole body itchy... wanna dance. haha...

watching britney spears i'm a slave for you mtv. i love the way she dance. she's so hot ~

no mood to write so much for today

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29 Dec 2005
come across this song: first love [piano version] by utada hikaru

this remind me abt ezzat playing the piano for me. memories just flood in...

i really dunno how to put them into words. he's so sweet everytime when he play the piano. The way he play looks so serious, yet so captivating. it's like that whole place were dim and only a ray of spot light will shone on him and the piano. This piece of memory will always be in my mind. cuz he the first and only person that ever plays piano for me. *heart crying

i really hate this. becuz of him, i find it so hard to love someone. i dunno how long will this continue to stay. i find myself liking someone easily, but i just cant fall in love with them. i know he felt just as miserable as well. i hope, at least, time will heal him. i pray for him...

i dunno what the hell when wrongs with me, that i've become so materialistic/realistic over this past month. i'm sorry for myself for being so selfish. cuz i'm only thinking for myself. i want a future that i can look forward too. i dunn want to take a step at a time. Although the future might be a dream, at least its something that i can look forward to. After this few weeks of struggling about my feelings, i finally found myself.

i wanted a predictable future. i find this contradicting when sometime i wanted surprises in my life too. predictable = boring. that's what i find it bothering too. i've always believe that miracle will happen. but this belief is fading. this harsh society is really cruel and dirty.

And now in the end, i can only say: What belong to you will eventually be yours. Fate...